Song Quote: "And on his grave it's written, Here lies awesome Josef”
I ve tried to update the last few days but I couldnt exactly find the words.
Everyday was a new experience and I think it finally all caught up with me today.
As I walked to the tube station I found police cars and ambulance surrounding it and seeing as this has now become a daily occurence in my life I walked through it unfazed. Not until I actually had the screen closed in my face did I realize that they wanted us to evacuate.
And not until 40 minutes later when i was sitting on a bus that I started to feel the weight of what happened.
It sort of came in the form of a panic attack, well it wanted to be one but I was able to keep myself under control.
Its just so hard to not be worried, you just dont know these days.Its hard to keep an over active mind from wondering the what if's.
I think it was not until tonight did I let all of the stuff that has been riding on me out.
Two bomb scares in two days and always within sight of police cars and yellow tape can do that to you.
Am sure am not the only one.
I wrote this a few days ago but never got around to posting it:
I am doing much better today. I've had a few days to actually calm down and come to grips with what has been happening.
You cant easily forget with all of the media covering it day and night through every channel available.
Also when I have to take three buses home instead of a tube ride because all of the lines are closed, its hard not to forget or to at least to go back to some sort of normal.
Am not saying that I want to forget. I dont, its something that has affected me and am sure has already become a part of the person I am but I would like to get past the shock and sadness that was so strong these past few days.
They are calling 7/7 and am just thankful that this disaster was not as tragic as 9/11.
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I am thankful for alot of things and for the two minutes of silence today, which I of course missed but made up for it when I got home I said a prayer of thanks for the country being strong, thankful that it wasnt any worse and I feel selfish for saying but thankful that am still alive. I also remembered the victims and I pray for their families always.
So please if you feel down or upset please take a moment to remember how lucky you are to wake up tomorrow.
Live and Love
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